Not sure if it's the PMS, but I'm feeling really alone. I have so much going on in my head right now and noone to talk to. I usually talk to my friend Julie but she always has something really positive to say but it unfortunately has nothing to do with reality or is just "puppies & rainbows". I don't do over-the-top positivity. I do realistic. Sometimes it's easier to remind myself of the realistic chances I have than to convince myself that this will work. If I'm convinced, then the BFN is that much harder to take. Don't get me wrong, I try to remain positive and remind myself there IS a chance but it can go either way.
My other confidante in my IF struggle is my BFF Kelly. She is one of the few people I've told of our struggle that hasn't said something stupid or offensive to me about it. She has never told me to relax or made me feel like it's my fault. She is just entering her 2nd trimester with her 2nd baby. Oddly, I feel like I can't talk to her about IF anymore considering she is due at the same time I would of been if my cycle with 3 great follies had worked. It's just too painful and I feel like a total loser. I also don't want to be Debbie Downer while she's pregnant.
FUIF!!!
I am so sorry ((hugs)) I hate that IF makes us feel alone.
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